Céline: I was thinking... for me, it's better I don't romanticize things as much anymore. I was suffering so much all the time. I still have lots of dreams, but they're not in regard to my love life. It doesn't make me sad, it's just the way it is.
Jesse: Is that why you're in a relationship with somebody who's never around?
Céline: Yes, obviously, I can't deal with the day to day life of a relationship. Yeah, we have, you know, this exciting time together and then he leaves, and I miss him, but at least I'm not dying inside. When someone is always around me, I'm like suffocating!
Jesse: No, wait, you just said that you need to love and be loved...
Céline: Yeah, but when I do it quickly makes me nauseous! It's a disaster. I mean I'm really happy only when I'm on my own. Even being alone, it's better than sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely. It's not so easy for me to be all romantic. You start off that way and after you've been screwed over a few times, you forget about all your delusional ideas and you just take what comes into your life. That's not even true I haven't been screwed over, I've just had too many blah relationships. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but... there were no real connection or excitement. At least not from my side.
Jesse: God, I'm sorry. Is it really that bad? It's not, right?
Céline: (Shaking her head with eyes nearly watering.) You know...it's not even that. I was... I was fine, until I read your fucking book. It stirred shit up, you know? It reminded me how genuinely romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things, and now it's like... I don't believe in anything that relates to love. I don't feel things for people anymore. In a way... I put all my romanticism into that one night, and I was never able to feel all this again. Like somehow this night took things away from me and... I expressed them to you, and you took them with you. It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me.
Jesse: I... I don't believe that. I don't believe that.
[ Before Sunset; Richard Linklater; 2004 ]
Jesse: Is that why you're in a relationship with somebody who's never around?
Céline: Yes, obviously, I can't deal with the day to day life of a relationship. Yeah, we have, you know, this exciting time together and then he leaves, and I miss him, but at least I'm not dying inside. When someone is always around me, I'm like suffocating!
Jesse: No, wait, you just said that you need to love and be loved...
Céline: Yeah, but when I do it quickly makes me nauseous! It's a disaster. I mean I'm really happy only when I'm on my own. Even being alone, it's better than sitting next to a lover and feeling lonely. It's not so easy for me to be all romantic. You start off that way and after you've been screwed over a few times, you forget about all your delusional ideas and you just take what comes into your life. That's not even true I haven't been screwed over, I've just had too many blah relationships. They weren't mean, they cared for me, but... there were no real connection or excitement. At least not from my side.
Jesse: God, I'm sorry. Is it really that bad? It's not, right?
Céline: (Shaking her head with eyes nearly watering.) You know...it's not even that. I was... I was fine, until I read your fucking book. It stirred shit up, you know? It reminded me how genuinely romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things, and now it's like... I don't believe in anything that relates to love. I don't feel things for people anymore. In a way... I put all my romanticism into that one night, and I was never able to feel all this again. Like somehow this night took things away from me and... I expressed them to you, and you took them with you. It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me.
Jesse: I... I don't believe that. I don't believe that.
[ Before Sunset; Richard Linklater; 2004 ]
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